is this a gift from God?

I don`t know if what im feeling is true. All I know is I`m very happy today because of some reason...

why I cried?

I realized that I still like him when annie talked to me about him ... I thought I`m over him and happy alone, but hurt sometimes awaken me... I cried because of the pain and the thought that he`s ignoring and avoiding me, I cried because I was so mad at him that I even want to curse him... It hurts a lot to know that he`s now involve with someone else, I don`t know what I`m feeling... All I know is, I HATE HIM today!!!