sober by kelly clarkson

And I dont know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothings real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts Ivebeen saving
So here I go with all my fearsweighing on me

Three months and Im still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept theflowers
But I know its never really over

And I dont knowI could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catcha glimpse of me
So I wont worry about my timing, Iwant to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no notthis time

Three months and Im still breathing
Been a long road since those hands
Ileft my tears in but
I knowIts never really over, noWake up

Three months and Im still standinghere
Three months and Im getting betteryeah
Three months and I still am
Three months and its still harder now
Three months Ive been living herewithout you now
Three months yeah
Three months I hurt
Three months and Im still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up
Three months and Im still soberPicked all my weeds but kept theflowers

help me how to do it...

I used to relate myself to a song "everybody`s changing",
'So little time Try to understand that I'm Trying to make a move to stay in the game I try to stay awake and remember my name But everybody's changing And I don't feel the same'
so true, coz i really don`t feel like changing, until a friend of mine, told me to stop and love myself, if i want to be happy...
Honestly, I don’t know how to start it, but I have to, it’s exactly a year since that feeling captured me... I will never ever forget that, but I think that’s the only way to move on and start, I have to forget every single thing, It seems like, I’m the only person who can’t move on,..
I always give myself an excuse and consideration that it’s hard to go on and forget, but it’s not, it’s just that I don’t want to...
I know I’m acting like a fool every time I remember what happened and still get affected by him...
So much of him, I have to concentrate to myself,.. I’m saying this and I have to do it, I have to it, I have to do it...
I don’t know how, but I have to...
I need to concentrate to my work, friends and self...
I have to love myself from now on, not anyone else, not him...